Time to Quit = Time to Live
I can’t believe it’s been a whole year since I stepped foot into my office. I had worked at my company for 15 years. That’s 15 years of relationships, career growth, accomplishments, personal growth, identity, steady salary…and I walked away from it all. Want to know why? I was miserable.
For the last year or two of my corporate career, I was feeling a sense of dread every day. I dreaded going to work because all I could think about was how many other things I wanted to do that I didn’t have time for. I felt like time was slipping away from me…like my life was moving too fast…like I didn’t have enough time with my kids…like I didn’t have time to live! I had so many co-workers that seemed to have just resigned to the fact that that’s the way life was….you go to work every day whether you like your job or not, and just “get through it.” Is that really living? When you spend most of your day at an office where you are unhappy, is that making the most of your life? Not in my world.
I wanted more time…time with my kids, time to create, time to make plans, time for me, time to enjoy life. It was the best decision I’ve ever made.
What I Miss About Working
My coworkers, being extremely organized, and the paycheck. I have to say that when I didn’t have much time, I was great at organizing and prioritizing my time. Now that I’ve got more time, I find that I’m not as organized about how I use my time. I’ve recently gotten back into the habit of making checklists every Monday morning, just like when I was working, and it’s definitely helping. Because there is just as much work to do being a stay-at-home mom…it’s just different work.
There’s this one other thing…when I used to tell people what I did for a living, they were kinda impressed. A woman Aerospace Engineering manager sounds pretty cool…I don’t get the same reaction when I tell people I’m not working. I guess I miss the sense of pride that went along with a cool job description. In my mind, being a mom is a way more important and impressive job, and I wish the rest of the world valued that job the way it should be!
What I Love About Not Working
I’m home for my kids after school. And let me tell you what, I feel like my 10 and 13 year old need someone home for them more than ever before. They are starting to experience all sorts of emotional challenges at their ages, and it feels good to be there to give hugs and listen when they choose to talk about it. I missed all of that when I was working.
Another great thing? My days are my own. When the kids are at school and my husband is at work, I’ve got an entire day to do whatever I want to or need to get done. It’s a great feeling! I used to have this overwhelming anxiety on Sunday nights that I didn’t get all the things done that I wanted to, and now I’d have to go back to work and have another whole week of not enough time. I look forward to Mondays now.
Will I Ever Go Back to Work?
My mother-in-law asked me this the other day. Actually, it was more like a statement, “you’re going back to work though, right?” I tell you what, I may go back to work, but I’m in no hurry! I’m finishing my master’s degree in Interior Architecture and Design, so I’m a full time student. I’m working on my website and selling products, I’m managing our house, I’m doing home improvement projects, I’m learning photography, and I’m being there for my kids after school. I have a full-time “job,” and it’s one that I love.
So, if you ask me today…not working definitely takes the cake. I took the right path for me, and it was the best decision of my life!